We were chatting and came up with a third type of person, one that separates the good from eachother. Women and Men who take advantage of the fact we care and they don't and go about ruining your life be any means violent physically, psychologically and emotionally. I have scars mainly invisible unless the implicitly trusted few probe with the right words. I don't feel trusted for some reason, I digress.
Because of people like this I don't feel that I can enter in to any kind of relationship other than friendship. I made friends with someone a while back and maybe before I would have fallen for her but I haven't, we're great friends now and I love her unreservedly, she got me through a few rough times.
Apart from people I've lost contact with I can count true friends on one hand and I suppose that's the way it should be.
"But it's like we weren't made for this world (Though I wouldn't really want to meet someone who was)"
Sometimes I feel jealous even of these people who harbour so much hate they can treat people that way, they are the people who were made for this world and me and my best friend weren't maybe that's why the urge to leave it is so strong in us.
I'm also envious of people with faith of any kind, I just don't believe in anything anymore.
"If you've lost your faith in love and music then the end won't be long"
I want to have faith even if it's only in something small.
Is it better to have loved and lost. I don't know if I have loved. I can't believe I loved my ex but I do love my best friends and if one of them disappeared I know I would grow more faint at the very least, I don't see any way back.
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