Scorched is the new look

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/london/6597753.stm

A nation of chavs mourn.

Androgyny

Androgyny appeals to me

like free fields see no boundaries

Not Everyone Will Survive

The news is rarely good, generally irrelevant to me and makes me feel hopeless/depressed. It's the last one that gets me, I can't do anything about things that happen. But I still watch, have I got a hunger for knowledge or just looking for something to talk about at work tomorrow, if someone dies what difference does it make that I know, is it anymore relevant when it happens locally (obviously if they're looking for someone and it's local you might recognise them so that may be important but otherwise), do I really need to be well informed? Surely most things I need to know are common sense anyway, but still I watch.

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Is it cruel or kind no to speak my mind and to lie to you rather than hurt you?

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If you've lost your faith in love and music
Oh the end won't be long

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Indie Cindy or The Ineptitude of a Narrator

I saw a girl today, she was wearing a white dress and red cardi. I wanted to compliment her on her shoes which were red with white polka dots, I thought they were really nice. I didn't. I don't know why. She got on the bus at Whitehall, her oyster didn't work so the driver waited for her to buy a ticket from the machine, she dropped her money on the floor, I was listening to Maxïmo Park's Russian Literature and Karaoke Plays while this was going on, she got on and stood opposite for a minute then went upstairs never to be seen again.

Cool for cats

If you would like to walk all over me feel free, everybody else does. I feel monumentally fucked over and it literally makes me feel sick. I just don't care anymore so here's your invitation to do the same just take it all, I don't want it.

I've just realised...I've got nothing to say

I got food poisoning last night, I felt fucked. But here I am at work, an hour and a half early I might add. I'm really not looking forward to working today.

I had the kids on Saturday they were reasonably well behaved which makes the day a whole lot easier. We went to the park for a while and Connor's nose bled when he banged his nose on the floor and Cole was quite content going up the slide the wrong way. They still fight with eachother a lot but I suppose I an expect that until they're adults and even then I'd imagine they would still fight. On the way back to their mothers Cole fell asleep and I gave Connor my iPod to listen to the Beatles (1962-1966 Red) and he was really enjoying it. I felt quite relaxed, usually I feel stressed by their behaviour but today was OK. When I don't have them I miss them but I can't help thinking they don't really need me anymore, like we're going through the motions. Sometimes I just feel like a babysitter.

I got a new iPod the other day my old one just died. I can't believe I went so long without one. It's great because now I can ignore people on the bus. Oh, and I just figured out how to scrobble iPod plays which is great because I like stats (I'm a bit sad can you tell).

I don't plan on going to any gigs in the near future so probably no late night tales of being drunk or lost or both. But I'll probably just decide to go out 5 minutes before I find out about a gig, I can be impulsive like that so you never know. They say the unplanned nights are the best. Although I would be quite content to stay at home and listen to music all day and have no contact with the outside world I can be reclusive like that.

Anyway I haven't eaten in a day and I can't tell if I'm hungry or not and a dismal day of mind crushing boredom awaits (go work).

Edit: I just realised this is the 50th blog I've published, I feel quite proud. I don't know if I can get to 60 let alone 100 but enjoy this and plan to continue but I still have problems getting the words out.

Things I would like to do...(a work in progress)

...preferably before I'm 30 (487 days as of today)

The Circle Line Pub Crawl (27 stops 28 drinks!!!) which I have scheduled for my birthday in August.

Visit 5 continents. 3 down (America, Africa, Europe) 2 to go (Asia, Australia). I should be going to Thailand either this year or next.

Be published (in print) even if it's just a letter.

Be involved in the music business.

Go to 7 gigs in 7 days (tried this last year and gave up after 3 nights, I was exhausted and perpetually drunk).

Art Bitch

I didn't 'get' art growing up and well into my teenage years. I thought what's the point it doesn't 'do' anything. I can't remember when I realised just how important it is to others and has become for me. I'm sure realising music was an art form helped greatly. Now I like to see, hear and read beautiful things, poetry has crept in to my life as well which was a pleasant surprise although I have trouble with the flow of some poems. If I'm honest, I don't know the first thing about art except the fact that I like it, which is the point for me anyway. I can't tell you what I like because I don't know what they are called generally but I think I should make an effort that way I can share with others the things I like.