shopping and stuff

Some of the results from my shopping trip yesterday...

Marc Jacobs Vans, wasn't too sure at first but are really comfortable

Can actually fit in to slim fit jeans ...am rather surprised

LRG Tee with bats, fits really well

and of course better late than never.

I bought two other t shirts one with the clash on it and another with the stones and two more pairs of jeans, some 7" and a CD single (Peter Doherty and Hatcham Social) and a copy of Vice.

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I still feel really bad even after the retail therapy. I still haven't succumbed to drink thanks mainly to one of my friends who has been there for me a lot recently but even she can't take this feeling away permanently, she makes me smile and takes me away from myself but it never lasts and it upsets me that her efforts aren't paying the dividends they should be. 

I have a lot of people who care for me and I take them all for granted, I can't seem to find the time for them all and usually end up alone through indecision.

I'm thinking things I shouldn't nearly all the time even going so far as to figuring out how, planning to self destruct is an odd sensation. There are too many loose ends which leads me to believe, rationally, that I don't really want to and have reasons to hang around.

Work want me to see my doctor but I don't feel ready to see one yet to be honest. I will see on eventually but I have to be certain it's the right way to go before I do.