Sabotage

Relationships are great aren't they. Relationships with your family ,your friends, your colleagues even. They are supposed to be good things, right. They say we need them to get on in life. Mine, well mine I seem to sabotage, subconsciously I suppose. I'll blurt out something inappropriate or stick my foot in it somehow. I don't know why I do it, but I do. I'd rather be on my own most of the time anyway, otherwise I feel the need to prove myself and I shouldn't be made to feel that way. I think I need to find myself a new set of friends but when I meet new people I feel they think I'm weird or something by the way I act or speak. Maybe I'm being paranoid I don't really know. It's a learning curve this life thing and at 28 I've still a long way to go.