I've been meaning to write for a very long time but haven't been able to find the urge to do it.
The emotional rollercoaster that is my life doesn't appear to be stopping anytime soon. It's just so hard to concentrate on anything everything seems to be happening in little twitteresque moments at least in my head. My weight is fluctuating though not greatly am 19-2 at the moment but varying between 18-13 and 19-6, no one seems to believe I'm that weight because I'm six foot two I carry it well but it's still a burden physically as well as mentally. I've made friends ad lost them in a few short months. Wis an absolute nightmare, the job itself is OK but the Team Leaders constant need to find something wrong to justify what they're doing which is basically fuck all is beginning to get to me. My ex is being mean about getting the kids which causes no end of upset. I'm a rational man but when you keep getting battered about it's hard to keep it together.
I feel like I'm falling apart or that my life is falling apart around me and am helpless and hopeless. I don't want to fight anymore.
The light in my room is flickering and it hurts my eyes so I must stop.
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