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I think I'm reasonably intellegent.

So, I'm at work and you're palming me off and I'll accept it.

Here is what goes on in my head while the above happens:

Do you really believe I don't get what you are doing to me, I think it's rather cheeky to be honest with you. I'ma accept it though because it's clearly not worth it if you think I'm a fool. I wonder why you can't just be straight weith me.

This may or may not be the case but like I said before I'm reasonably intellegent, I can read people, not well, but when it's obvious. My problem is this, Do I continue wanting to be with these people or do I cut them out and just be civil at work.

I don't trust myself to be right and therefore these people get the benefit of the doubt to let me down over and over again.

I was told I have a certain arrogance (more than once, twice infact so until someone else says it I'm treating it as a line as opposed to a patern and hence possibly true) which got me thinking what is it I do that would make people think that. Sometimes I think someone isn't particularly bright at certain things and I'll take for granted this means they are not clever at anything. Sometimes I won't talk to you or ignore you if we've just met, this can last for months but it really is only my shyness. Sometimes I'll be in a room of friends and I'll just leave after not joining in the conversastion and I wonder should I make an effort to talk about something I'm not interested in or understand, again I do find it hard to enter in to a conversation and feel what I have to say is not worth saying and it is hard to work up the courage to do so.

I suppose this is all part of the whole "letting things be" thing.

ah the mysteries.